I stumble across here rarely. All too rarely in fact.
It's quite sad, how much of who I am, has been broadcasted online. It makes me nervous, uneasy, hesitant even, to know that the songs of my past could/can come back to haunt me.

It's 8:54am... The earliest I have willingly woken up at in a very long time. And I went to bed last night at 11pm... Also the earliest I have willingly gone to sleep to in a long time.

*Sigh's contently* I can enjoy the sun again.
For months I have kept myself wrapped in this cocoon of hate. Of Loathing. Of hating those who have caused pain in my life. And up until last week, I was willing to admit my transformation from being Human, to being the very kind of undead that I have recently indulged in reading about.

I exploded. Of course at this stage, I was without inhibitions. I raged and I let everything out.

I repented.

I confessed.

I felt at peace.

And the sun started shining again. It was as if three months of pain just took it's first dose of natural pain medication... and it was doing alright. I was going to be alright..

I seem to meet a substantial amount of loss at the start of each odd year. We all know 2007 Was Fair shit, And apart from the Loss of My Gramps being painfully irreversible, this year meets the standards of "FAIL"

But I seem to be picking myself up.

I've begun to write.

Luderwick is within its second stage. The rough draft. I brainstormed and filled each chapter with as much as I could. Created names, themes, plots and disasters.

And I have come up with something, that hopefully no one has done before. Of course, there's little bits that have been done so hard they resemble Swiss cheese, but a lot of people like Swiss cheese right?

Otherwise they wouldn't sell it...

So in that part of my life, the creational spark has risen. (I am aware creational isn't a word)

I have new things to be hopeful towards. School starts for me soon, Professional Writing and Editing is the way to go for me now... As it always was.

Living at home has become slightly easier. We had a massive cleaning bee yesterday and i feel a lot more comfortable in a home appreciated.

Wally and I are... Well... Wally and I, I guess. Nothing really substantial has changed on that front.

I have the sniffles.

I'm awake early and the Farmers Market is on.

*Smiles* Might go get me some nice vegies and some more charms to put on my necklace.

Ciao.